Dear blogspot,

i know i should feel ashamed that i havent visited or posted for a very long time..
but i have been so ever busy, but i wont lie to you, ive found someone else to statisfy my
blog needs, something easier then this, that i can see other beautiful GORGEOUS! posts from stunning people, and i can even search other profiles and blogs with ease as there all in catagories, sadly, Blogspot isnt like that..

i definitely am proud of you though, you have helped me share my feelings alot of times and some of my best blogs are on here :)

So thankyou for being such an amazing Blog so fair and putting up with my lack of interest :)

If i dont keep posting on here,, Follow me on here : http://withlvjulie.tumblr.com/

Love,
JuLie ♥

xox

where is This World Heading??..

while my sister talks about wedding plans and seating positions, where the groom will stand and the brides maids walk, i am sitting here oblivious to it all„ smelling my newly bought books :)
Frankie Magazines sit on my table ready to be read, thought about, reworded, and re blogged. it tells of love, happiness, inspiration to be a better person it doesn’t have favorite sex positions. no Naked sex in ball pits. Just good old Truth..

Most of this world isnt like that anymore. the dirtier the better. the sadder this world gets so do the people, children as young as nine are looking at porn, having breakdowns and losing their loves..
how do these once innocent children that had such big imaginations get into the most horrible positions??
where were the parents, their loved ones? No one was there to help them stop it from turning it into a full blown addiction.. why are Girls as young as six having boyfriends and touching their bits??
most Girls i talk to tell me its because they were promised forever, so its perfectly normal to do these things.. only three weeks later to find out they broke up and now moved on to somebody better.. it seems as if we have someone say “Hi” and “forever” in a sentence and all of a sudden we drop all our self control and dignity for them… not even thinking about the consequences,..
where are we heading in this crazy mixed up life?? will we ever stop and bring back imagination??
only we can make this world a better life..


JuLie

xox

decisions...

so many paths to choose in life, do i stay there or go somewhere else? i don't want to go on but i don't want to leave such a beautiful happy place, flourishing with life, an earthly paradise, keeping out the cold dead world. theres so many people, so many listeners, i feel so wanted, so loved and so happy. how do i leave a place that makes me feel so peaceful?

i need to go for it ll turn poison. i must find another paradise i cant give in to reason. if not no one will ever understand me, the more i spend there, the more I'm consumed, so much different speech and sayings that this outside world just doesn't comprehend... i cant be alone in this cold life, when I'm not near you..
Its getting worse as the time goes on, i may have grown, but outside Ive shrunk, and ill keep shrinking, i don't want to go but i need people to hear me.
I'm so scared of my proposed commitment, so many doubts so many denials. so many things that i just cant handle. what if i make the wrong decision?? but what if i stay and regret it??

i just don't want to be the bad child no one understands
anymore..

Love

I guess its all the same fairytale story : girl find guy, girl falls head over heals for guy, girl and guy get together, girl and guy get married and live happily ever after.
sadly, this isn’t true in this world and as i see all around me everyone is unhappy, broken up, annoyed and just plain wondering if this was the right decision..
personally i believe when you’re in love with someone the feeling is so strong, its that strong that you feel it coursing through youre bones, you know its right and no one else makes you have this wonderful feeling.. you treat each other with the utmost respect, never bitter or angry all the time towards the other person, able to talk about your problems and fix them together, set goals together and just love each other even after 5 years..
so many people wonder if they made the right decision, and i believe if you have any doubts or questions, wondering if this is right, then it isn’t, why would you think these things if you know their the one??
i don’t understand why people go with each other if they know its not right, if there jiminy Cricket is chirping in the back of your mind, you should follow it. its chirping for a reason. don’t ever believe that you’ll find no one else, because there is more then one million people on the face of this earth. no matter what anyone tells you..
believe in yourself, and know that your gut feeling is always right. dont let anyone make you feel bad so you will stay with them..
Good luck
xox

sundays

How wonderful is it too be able to spend all day relaxing while sipping tea and basking in the sun :)

Only sundays can give you that calm feeling all over, knowing that you can do anything and not have to worry about commitments etc etc..

The only sad thing is knowing that in a few short hours sunday will finish and life will begin again until you are finally briefly welcomed with this short freedom that next weekend will bring..

Xox

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Vulnerability

The things that we are most scared of are the reason we keep living. So much vulnerability in such small minds, no one can escape it as everyone feels it, most won’t admit it, and some admit it too much. Its there always there, in the back of the mind, pestering telling you all these sugar coated lies,, they never rest, never stopping, always there, always talking. But who are we too choose to ignore it?? Will we not listen or listen too much? All these worries scare us consuming you whole… Will you ignore it? Cap it, bottle tightly til you can’t feel it swirling around anymore.
Bravery is vulnerability kept hidden, who can be a hero if one is scared of everything this world has to offer? Too many woes, too many theories, all swirling around with a negative feeling.
Without this the world would have no drive, no need to look up to anything no need for strive, no need for goals or personal development, the world wouldn’t be real if we didn’t have vulnerability. Vulnerability makes us strong and brave and helps us move on. It helps us do better in this great big world…
Will you choose to ignore it? Or listen to it?

Traveling...

The planning, leading up, packing, circling the date on your calender, setting your alarm for a time only business people or miners would wake up at.. the day comes quickly, and before you know it your off on this uncertain journey that can make or break your life. Your trip will show you things you've been too blinded to see, while realizing what you took for granted in your normal everyday life. Some people count down the days before their trip is over because its just not what they wanted. but then others wish it would never end, like they could run away from everything in their lives back home. Sadly, either way that day comes usually filled with sadness and hurrying. they checkout, count heads and hit the road toward commitment, waving goodbye freedom...

but we suck it up, take a deep breath, and board the plane. descend and soon enough land. this is when the stress comes into play, we leave the Tarmac, walking in lines like at the grocery store,,, usually greeted with strangers and loneliness, theres no warm arms waiting for us from friends or family. we start the pressure and worry looking at the signs, while racing toward the round about luggage pickup area and impatiently waiting til we see the label to identify its your luggage from the other boring same colored suitcases like yours coming down the line. without even realizing it were running , dodging people and knocking them out of the way to get the bags before there carried off, leaving you waiting for them to come back around...

this is when we usually stop smiling and put our serious faces on. we run to the car or other means of getting home,.

Soon enough you reach your neighbourhood and somehow you realize so many things look different, you appear to see the bigger picture and everything looks new and slightly creepy almost like a movie. you reach Home, and realize even that too looks different , un lived in and more run down then you thought. you take time to see the shape and the state of it, the grass, plants , trees and even sometimes the gate.. we look at everything we usually forget to any other usual day..

the holiday you just had soon becomes a distant memory almost like a dream. But that soon becomes okay when you get inside and feel that presence you've been dying to feel all the time you werent here.. you become aware of how much you missed since you came back..

Even though homesickness greets you very quickly into your Trips, you still cant wait til you get to go on another one, usually counting down the days or months til its upon you again.. often wishing the days would go faster cause you've become stuck in the same routine day after day, the one you promised yourself you wouldn't get into again.. but you knew that was a lie anyways...

Yep, Holidays can be Great. they leave you refreshed, showing you everything you should be grateful for, and also shows you things that ll stay with you for all your days.

That is truly lovely

xox

Word Vomit

its become stronger now,

what started off as a whisper in the farr side of my brain has become a loud cry.

ive started to mouth the words and silently spill it out, as if im technically not lying cause no one hopefully can hear me say it.

sadly, i know this is a lie and what im doing isnt right.

but i cant help it, I long to be able to just scream it out to EVeryone! Just SHOUT and not care whos listening, i dream of it, always thinking about it.. But now i actually Spoke it.. theres always a moment where its needed,, where it can cover a million different areas.. Its such a powerful thing! its such a Thrill its just what i need to get my point across.. i want to do it more as if its my new shiny toy. the more i think about it the more appealing it is...

its now spilling out of my mouth on so many occasions as if its neverending Word Vomit.. i dont know how much longer i can stay without this for.. i dont know how to not let it take over like a Flame to paper its spreading more and more with each minute..

but i must come up with a way..

before these meaningless words take over and win...

xox

Goodbye my Dear,

its been three weeks and i havent heard from you, i pace around all day long waiting for a reply from you. your in my mind all the time, everything reminds me of you.. so Many happy memories have made me depressed, all our talks have made me feel so much regret. So many questions run through my mind was it me or you? i try not to care but its no good, my feelings had been struck i let my guard down and got attached something i promised myself i wouldnt do. Now im stuck with the Mess of picking myself up and starting again.. why couldnt you just Say goodbye?why did you have to make me think and believe your Lie?? i guess im just not the Right type, or the right anything,, i should of just walked away instead of thinking there was something... that you never saw.. Did you feel it?? did you like it? are you thinking about it now?? so many questions, sadly i dont think is true..

but for now, to save me all these painful moments of wishing, wondering and hoping ,, i will do the thing you should of done. I will simply Try to move on and forget. like you are a distant memory ,, so far behind me i cant reach it or remember it..

So good bye my Dear,,

xox

its been three weeks and i havent heard from you, i pace around all day long waiting for a reply from you. your in my mind all the time, everything reminds me of you.. so Many happy memories have made me depressed, all our talks have made me feel so much regret. So many questions run through my mind was it me or you? i try not to care but its no good, my feelings had been struck i let my guard down and got attached something i promised myself i wouldnt do. Now im stuck with the Mess of picking myself up and starting again.. why couldnt you just Say goodbye?why did you have to make me think and believe your Lie?? i guess im just not the Right type, or the right anything,, i should of just walked away instead of thinking there was something... something more. something brilliant.. it cant be possible for you went back,, were you ever gonna tell me?

for now, to save me all these painful moments of wishing, wondering and hoping ,, i will do the thing you should of done. I will simply Try to move on and forget. like you are a distant memory ,, so far behind me i cant reach it or remember it..

So good bye my Dear,,

xox

Positiveness.

"her aura was negative, the circle was tainted, i didn't wanna know her".

it seems this world is full of people that are miserable,

they have no direction, its like positiveness has left them ages before.

and they cant seem to or don't want to get it back.

have we lost the ability to be happy? to look at the bright side of things?

don't we know how to do that anymore?

this world is so beautiful, theres so many things we should be thankful for.

how can we be miserable when everything is unfathomable in life.

everything small and fragile we miss, everything we over look and over use we never see what its worth. we just think its not important.

are we not thankful that we have it in the first place?

should we not love having the privilege to breathe? and to be alive,, to do everything a human can ever dream to do.. shouldn't it be enough to be happy??

its saddening to know that this world is like this..

is life that hard that theres no use in smiling anymore?

or thinking and breathing in your surroundings.. ?

like an intense breath so that you dont over look whats infront of you, you actually focus in and study it til you appreciate it?

have we lost the gift of positiveness??

xox

Torn in Two..

i remember the day you sat me down and told me the skies the limit, "think Big JuLie ,, you'll go further then that. Meet new people, love them like their your second family, treat people like you want to be treated".. do you remember that?

Or have you Forgotten??

my Heart has Sunk like the Titanic, my Smile was Suddenly destroyed and it vanished like a Ghost after its been spotted.. those words totally broke me..

how could you say it in front of everyone? so open and offensive. have you not even thought about any ones emotions? you just went ahead and said it, just because she agrees doesn't mean you have too..

you ll never know how amazing 'everyone' Is...

I Know i might be wrong, But you brought me up telling me to love everyone,

why the hell did you lie! why are you so scared? cant you just love me no matter how i am? why is everything i do wrong?

i don't think you ll ever accept the truth..

JuLie

xox

my story i guess..

i tell no one as its a waste, easier to sit there then give it away.. my brain is full of so many things, i want to explode but yet i cant feel a thing.. i just feel like flooding the ocean with a billion of my salty tears, sadly its locked with an unreachable key... whats the point of sharing when its really going to help nothing. i cant tell i cant be weak, not anymore so i will not speak..

Theres a constant battle of so many fucked up thoughts running through my already messed up mind, now its erasing all my fragile memories so Remembering is such a painful task.

when i thought forgetting was the best thing to do i didnt know, i was dead wrong.. all this time ive been lying to myself hoping ill believe it soon,, but sadly i dont im just dead to the world, just floating and skimming and pretending to be whole. im reaching out but failing, i should try harder but im just too lazy ....

i did it again on accident,, it was surreal when it started to tear, scary thing was i couldnt feel it peal.. i know its so wrong but i feel so alone. and Hes the only one that will help me make it through the night. my cycle is back,my mask is growing and slowly its happening,, now im pretending.. ...

What do i do?? im breaking..

xox

why Swear words are bad...??

Ive Have been wondering about this for a very long time..

Why are swear words bad?

why are they swear words?

who made them up?? Why did they??

and Why is there such a word called Swear? who put the thought into peoples mind to say swear words,,,

was someone just so bored they had to think up some naughty words so somehow he could get enough people to believe it then spread it and after a while it would be global?

But really why are they bad,, what if People said ''Hello' was a swear word,, would we never say it again??

how would we know if it was a lie? and really aren't all words just words?

Like the word 'gay' in the beginning it was explained as happy,

now its a word for someones orientation.... what is this world thinking?? why did they let that word become bad in the first place?

but really if they are just words,, why are we soo offended at them , when any other 'normal word' can offend us like - Stupid, Idiot, or moron.

they are pretty offending but apparently not swear words...

What do you think???

JuLie ♥

xox

She read between the Lines..

Have you ever had someone figure you out?

I've Always been open, No body could stop me talking about my emotions, it was all for everyone to hear, sadly, i told too many people. but Since its happened. I Don't want to bother anyone, why should anyone know what Ive gone through? why should i tell someone my problems when they have their own? No body really wants to know people's problems.

But there she was asking me, trying to figure me out,, unraveling me like a weak ball of yarn, She read between the lines and found out my Darkest Secret.

How do i Have a D&M if my brain keeps telling me no one wants to hear my problems

I'm scared to tell the truth, so much lies i tell myself, so much terrible thoughts,, all messed up in this web of Weird things, what if i cant control my feelings, so many things so much worry.

the time is soon before it happens, when i pour everything out and everything changes, every thought out in the open, isn't this what i wanted??

I'm not sure if i can anymore, i don't want to remember the past all those feelings flooding back..

the scariest thing of all is Shell understand..

I'm so used to everyone leaving, empty promises, so many lies, will it be the same??

what if it wont? what will i do then?

why the hell am i so worried about this!!!

JuLie ♥

xox

Why do people Fight??

I guess im writing about this because im worried, i think about this everyday, its always replaying over and over like a broken record.

the fights are constant and heartbreaking, they happen everyday and no matter how much i walk away and close the door the yelling never gets softer. It must be hard to talk your problems out. I'm really scared that you'll part. What will i do when my Two Knights in Shining Armor the ones that are so close to my heart leave and go their separate paths??

how could you talk about Divorce in a normal sentence? did you even consider that it would affect us, How Could you EVER think we could even possibly be okay with taking sides?

How can i take sides to Immature monsters...

was it my fault? Am i the reason why you hate each other? If i was a boy would it be better?

you blamed her didn't you,, It was never her fault... Blame Me not her!

I'm scared that if i ever love someone i will act like you two do, i never wanna be like yous..

i don't Wanna love because hurting them with my bitter words would make a small part of me die,, i just know it would! I cant let them act like that to me either,, i just cant deal with that..

The saddest thing is that you try to pretend like its nothing, like yous are totally fine,, why are you in Denial?? i wish you'd just admit it and freely say it,, is it that hard to say you have a Problem?? sadly, your not fooling anyone..

i Love you both so very very much ,, but you've ruined my ability to love, to show emotion, to want to care... im so scared i cant even trust anyone, how can i help yous so you can love each other again? i just wanna make everything better, if i left maybe yous could be happier...

Free...

JuLie ♥

xox

Children,

I went out today with my Cousin and had so much fun,
she is such a brilliant child, i love how there so alive and use the imagination, and they can get what they want whenever they want it..

i think as older people we forget to see the things children see ,, or do things children do,

they are brilliant creatures they admire the things we have long forgotten and put into 'the oh yeh the awesomenes has worn off ' pile.

but they dont ,, seriously if you put a cardboard box infront of them theyd find something to do with it,, when older people would Get angry and be like ' is that all there is ?''

but the point im trying to make is,,
we should wake up and smeelll the coffee,, and Look and admire things we have forgotten,,
we take so many things for granted,, so each day make a list of everything we take forgranted..
youll aprreaciate so many more things then before :)

SPread loveliness My fellow Bloggers

xoxx

JuLie

Love me?..

'there i was left standing,, All Alone. '

my chance is gone,, its too late,, Whyd they have to go?? why didnt i just tell them!

i believe that happiness is within a person and in the end we can only trust ourselves. but sometimes i get so lonely, i just want someone to come home to, i wanna be able to Love and be Loved i wanna know that im not some kind of monster,, im actually a lovely Human being...

why is it so hard to find someone?? is it true that theres some Knight (girl or guy) in shining Armor coming to save us? or are we just desperate and lying to ourselves??

why is it that we have a list of what we want in a person but yet when someone comes along we drop it all and 'settle' for them cause they showed interest?...

Why are we so involved in being inlove.,,, why is it the most important thing in ones life??

so many questions , its all racing through my head..

i Dunno what to do and how to go on..

but even though it hurts right now i know that the world is amazing and yous should all believe in love and life,, but before you make a choice again,, really consider if its right, use your Head then your heart cause our heart is desperate and the heads always right...

thankyou :)

Spread Love,,

WiTh Lv..

JuLie ♥

xox

people..

This blog today is towards people..

People are Amazing, people are brilliant , happy and inspiring ..

they warm my heart they build my life and they make me want to live..

but some People some 'square' people, they hurt my feelings.

they hurt everything i stand for, there negative there party poopers.

i keep wondering to myself, = how does someone get like this? how do they not see the world and see the most amazing things?? and how can anyone really hate humans Or really hate Everything??

i dont understand it,,, they keep misssing all the wonderful open doors of happy bright things that would help their lives and their futures.

so im here today to tell people,,, LIke scream it out from the highest building

that life is wonderful and yeh you might get down and angry but there is no need to close up.

you mightn't have the wonderfulest life. but think about all the wonderful things you have..

People do Love you.. You are loved. just Open your eyes and your mind and youll see it..

Where has your life Gotten you???
what have you got to lose?

try it,, Smile and Love,, Open your mind to everything wonderful
:)

Spread Loveliness my Dear readers..

WiTh Lv..

JuLie ♥

xox

Love.

Dear my Followers..

i was watching a movie tonight and it was ofcourse about love.

but have you realised that LOVE isnt what it used to be , its not as promising or important

its overly used, its widely miss-used and not many people fall in LOVE they have 'infatuation'.

but how do we really know that its love??

or if its simply hormones making us feel great?

and why does it wear off?

no matter how much you try to avoid it love is always around, its always with you and your always going to love something..

and thats really brilliant, believing in something that you dont know the outcome even though its scary but its Brave and its wonderful and itll take you to places that you never knew were there.

give Love a chance ( even though its crazy and messed up)

never let anyone make you feel like its no use loving something in this world..

love whatever you want to , even if your friends say not to. love the people that you want to not the ones that supposedly "look right"...

trust in something that you normaly wouldnt.. you never know it might take you to places that you never thought of :)

always remembering to love yourself and others :)

i know youve been told these things before but really ,, REALLy think about it,,, we dont say it because we want to be lame and quotish.. we say it because its true, and when in action can make your life so much better.. and funner hehe

Spread Love

WiTh Lv..

JuLie ♥

xox

Backstabbers!

Dear fellow Bloggers :)

i hope your having a wonderful Weekend, blogging , reading and going out doors cause this Sun is freaking amaazzzingg :)

back to why im here lol

Backstabbers..... have you ever wondered about this? most of us have, Kesha has sung about it Heck most people no matter what Gender, orientation and race have.. (were all united:])

i was thinking about how much i hate when people talk about you behind your back or when you find out something that wasnt true because your best friend lied to you and you got the truth from some 'random' that you dont even know!

but really i can go on and on about how much i hate it when people do that, truth is though i do it too.

everyone does, people talk about you one minute and be your bestfriend the next minute. Not because they hate you but because thats what Us humans do. (not including general meanies lol).

SO im here to change this,, and myself for a better future,

instead of saying something negative with another negative, team it with something positive.

e.g - she is a bit crazy but i love her anyways :)...

people are beautiful, we all get angry and say things we dont mean, but if we can give happy positive comments about people we will feel better and make the other person feel better to :)

SPREAD loveliness :)

everyone have a happy Day

WiTh Lv..
JuLie ♥

xox

When people say cant...

i find alot of people say they cant,,,

they cant do this, they cant change jobs, they cant change their lifestyle, they cant break up.

but thats NOT true, in life we always have a choice no matter how hard or difficult it is.

sure you might cry alot and it might be sad for a while but if its gonna better you in the future and make you happy and lovelier then do anything you can.

set goals to reach it.

the only thing in life that matters is your happiness, always try to find it keep it, let it come naturally, life is a journey we mustn't spend our whole life searching for 'peace' or 'perfectness' or your destination because youll never look out the window and see all the stuff your missing on your unique journey.

there are alot of quotes and sayings and people that tell you how to be happy, but everyones happiness is different, you cant be happy unless you make your WHOLE heart and Mind believe it too..

It STArts with you :)

we always have a choice, we have a choice in what we do, how we do it and what we'll do in our future, we should never follow someone elses footsteps because your's is just right for you..

even if people bring you down and tell you you cant make it and you wont succeed, odds are you will and their jealous.

PROVE them Wrong.

Prove your right.

SPread happiness

WiTh Lv..

JuLie ♥

xox

People are amazing; good Byes make me Cry

Today i was talking with My class about how amazing people are and how they make the world A better place.

I know that the effects of people on this world have totally ruined it, but think about the wonderful things that people have done to add to the world?

how amazing and happy people can be, how they make you laugh, grow and experience new things.

its Great Finding wonderful people in this crazy mixed up planet, ones that would help you without wanting anything in return, ones that would be there with soup and tissues when your sick... and Then you ofcourse inturn do the same..

hold on to these wonderful lovely people, and when they leave its okay to cry cause there amazing adding so much wonderfulness to your life,

remember their dreams in life are important, so make sure you leave room for them to..

Always Remember to SMile and SPread Loveliness

WiTh Lv..

JuLie ♥

xox

were all curious..

Everyone always has an opinion that they believe, some may be all for it, some may hate it with a passion..

Our Love status shouldnt matter, whether were gay or straight or dont like both or somehow were not sure and were hanging around hoping well find out what we are.

Are we really born Gay or do we think about it enough that a thought catches fire in our minds and then it grows into a lifestyle? although i was never aware that babies knew who they were gonna Snog,, or do they??

Theres so many Questions into this delicate conversation, but i really dont understand how some can be friends with one kind and not the other,, we are all people living all together in this world yeh??

most of us,, even those people that hate Gay people are curious, what would it be like? how could they seriously do that? but have you ever thought for a second about it? i think we all have,,, and sometimes you might be jealous cause that person stopped living in denial and excepted it and is now living pretty happy.

are you the one that meets a Gay person and practically falls on top of them hoping theyll see through your sad attempts of trying to make them think your definatly straight hoping theyll save you the torture and make there moves??

I dont mean for everyone to turn gay because i think most people do so somehow they can be accepted and in the 'group', i know one person that turned Bi just so she could fit in,, (and in this world we must be unique and ourselves, its what makes life wonderful..).. so whoever you are and what ever you believe ,, love it , embrace it, share it but never force it .. hehe

spread LOVE!

WiTh_Lv_JuLie

xox

♥